As I sit down at my kitchen table with my dirty dishes in view, trying to get my wits about me as a recover from a busy weekend, with a long to-do list bouncing throughout my brain, and a toddler in my lap trying to "help" me write this post, I am reminded of the amazing Gospel truths that I need to hear on a daily basis. It is a constant battle to look to Christ and not my sin. Thanks, Kimm, for the much needed reminder!
Monday, May 6, 2013
The Truth About Mother's Day with Kimm Crandall
As I sit down at my kitchen table with my dirty dishes in view, trying to get my wits about me as a recover from a busy weekend, with a long to-do list bouncing throughout my brain, and a toddler in my lap trying to "help" me write this post, I am reminded of the amazing Gospel truths that I need to hear on a daily basis. It is a constant battle to look to Christ and not my sin. Thanks, Kimm, for the much needed reminder!
Tuesday, March 26, 2013
Pinterest-y Easter
I searched Pinterest high and low for Christ-centered ideas to celebrate Easter with kids. Most of the ideas that I found, were, well, just cheesy and didn't help explain why we celebrate the fact that Christ is risen. For example, I was not looking for a "No Bunny Loves You Like Jesus!" printable to put in the kids' Easter baskets. I don't want to force Jesus into our Easter baskets.
So, this afternoon, I found it. I found the Easter-y thing that creatively connects eggs and Christ AND helps explain why we celebrate, "He is Risen!"
I believe the "proper" name for the thing I found is "Resurrection Eggs." Sofia's Primary Ideas is the blog that best explained each egg for me. (CLICK HERE FOR LINK) All you need is 12 plastic eggs and all the other items you can find around your house and yard. Each egg contains a message, a passage, and an item to describe the events leading up to the Resurrection of Christ. It is sort of like an "Easter Advent." My kids LOVED the advent calendar we did at Christmas time, so I know they will enjoy this. You fill the eggs, label them, and hide them. The kids find them, open them, and you read each message and passage. I'm not sure if we will do this Easter morning or after church, but either way, I've made the eggs (it took me about 30 minutes) and I am excited!
Saturday, March 16, 2013
Christ in the Chaos: A Review
I remember growing up, painting or drawing a piece of art would be a common thing for me to do. When I was close to finishing up the piece, I would show my parents the almost-finished product for their opinion. To them, these pieces of art were beautiful. To me, there was always imperfections and room for improvement. I was critical and always very hard on myself as an artist. I remember my mom telling me that "You are your worst critic." Oh how true it is!
In reading Christ in the Chaos, I have had the opportunity to examine my heart, especially in regards to the motives of my heart. My motives seem to be driven from high expectations from myself and false (or perhaps nonexistent) expectations from others. I will never meet these expectations. I will always find myself lacking. No matter how I may see myself lacking---a canvas painted with many imperfections and mistakes---God sees me as a perfect masterpiece because He sees Christ. You see, I can continue to try to improve and cover up my bad brush strokes and blemishes. I will. It's in my nature. I can continue to care about what other people think and seek their approval. That, too, comes very natural. Even as I write this post, my sinful heart seeks your approval and many views from my followers---all 14 of them. But, those things don't matter. All God sees is Christ! Not my imperfect paintings or my blog posts seeking approval! Oh, and for that, I am so very thankful! That drives me to obedience. I pray that The Lord continues to work in my heart and that I would more often look to Christ and not to what others think of me.
Now, I have a confession to make. Christ in the Chaos is the first book written to women (but not only for women) that I have finished since I became a mother. I started plenty, but I was never motivated to finish them because they showed me my weakness (the weakness I already very well knew of!) and didn't show me Christ. Yes, they showed me passages in Titus or Ephesians or Proverbs which are great reminders of how I am to act as a woman. But I always would become discouraged because I could not live up to those expectations. I always mess up. Always. This was the first book that not only assured me that would happen, but pointed me to Christ in that he has already done all the work for me. Now, I need to clarify that this doesn't make me lazy. Quite the opposite. This amazing outpouring of God's grace drives me to repentance and obedience. In fact, that grace is the same grace that sort of "smacks the sense" into me with I go on a sinful rant when something (or many things) don't go the way I think they should. Kimm points that out several times in this book. And it is true! It's truly extraordinary what God's grace can do!
One of my favorite passages from Christ in the Chaos is as follows:
"Mothering has taught me how very weak I really am, and that is a hard, hard truth to accept. But by living in my weakness, I see more and more how powerful God really is. I come to understand that his power is shown to be perfect through my weakness and failures."
Oh! How I relate to how mothering has truly shown me my extreme frailty as a human being! What comfort to know that especially in our weakness, God is showing His power!
Summing up the same chapter, Kimm writes, "Let me encourage you to take off the "strong mother" mask and embrace your weakness. Stop hiding the very inadequacy God wants to use to display the gospel. Believe his grace is sufficient. Allow his power to be made perfect in you and then boast! Boast all the more gladly so the power of Christ may rest upon you. In your weakness, you will be made strong."
One of the chapters in Christ in the Chaos addresses the "Masks" that we put on in order to "fake it" so that we may get the approval, acceptance, and love of others. I am constantly, in the deepest, darkest center of my soul, comparing myself to everyone around me. Whether it be the mother at church who has more kids than me and somehow seems to be holding it together very well, or the mother who home-schools with several little ones with what looks like ease, or the mother who manages to find time to weight lift and compete and has more muscles than I would ever know what to do with. I am constantly seeking the approval of my own self. My "self" tells me that I need to have the kitchen sparkling everyday, that my kids don't need to watch any TV (Ha!), that I need to workout six days a week, and that I can never show any weakness to my kids, my husband, or my peers. I have to constantly battle this. Kimm shares that she does too. That makes this book different than all the rest that I ~ahem~ started to read. She says that these things will always be a struggle, but to run to Christ---to remember (Christ's work on the cross and how it relates to YOU daily), to repent (daily of those sins and desires to do it on your own) and to rest (in knowing that Christ has FINISHED the work for you. He has paid it all. We owe nothing.) REST! What a truly freeing concept!
Here is where I am going to say that if you have not read this book, READ IT. It is only $9.99 in paper form and $5.99 in Kindle form. I knew Kimm before reading this book, but even if I hadn't, I would feel as if she is one of my dear and closest friends after reading this book. She is the first woman who has said to me, "You will fail. And when you do, run to Christ. Rest in Him." I appreciate that honesty so very much. And for that reason, as Anne Shirley (Anne of Green Gables) would put it, I feel as though the author of this book and I are "Kindred Spirits." I know she has gone through (nearly in earthly terms) hell and back as a mother. I know she understands me and my weakness. I know she prayed that it would effect me and everyone else who ate up the words from cover to cover. I am so very thankful that God has used her life ---from the seemingly bottomless pit of despair she was in to the completely freeing Grace of God that she has come to know as a mother--- to speak to women who really, really needed to hear how the Gospel changes motherhood. Thank you, Kimm, for the love, effort, prayer, and hours you poured into this book.
Friday, March 8, 2013
Christ in the Chaos: What Sweet Truth!!!
I had a good idea of what the first chapter would be about. I met Kimm about eight years ago through my husband, who is an old friend of Kimm and her husband, Justin. Several years ago, I remember sitting at Kimm's table and her telling my husband and I that she came to the conclusion that see wasn't a Believer---that she was trying earn her favor with God and that she was working through those things. She believed that she had been saved since then. I saw the changes in her shortly after I became a mother. Instead of conversations on homeschooling or how to make your own sour cream, I started to enjoy long, late-night Gospel-centered conversations with her when her family slept over at our house. I value her candidness and honesty as a fellow mother. I even breathed a big sigh of relief when she told me she used paper plates all the time, just like I did. Her willingness to "rest" in the Christ and the Gospel has been such an blessing and an example to me. I am so thankful that she encouraged me to steer clear of those "dress-wearing, child-bearing, homeschooling, bread-baking, perfect-living" blogs that I naturally had an interest in (not that there is anything wrong with those things themselves, but you know what I mean). With that said, reading chapter one of Christ in the Chaos still brought me to tears. I struggle with focusing on Christ's faithfulness to me. I struggle with beating myself up if I don't get my bed made in the morning, or if Jackson is late for school, or if I drop 3 dollars worth of Greek yogurt on the floor, or forget to buy the butter (all of which happened yesterday). I must admit, those things, at the moment, seem tragic to me. My sinfulness creeps into my heart and mind and the truth I know---that Christ is faithful, even with all my shortcomings, HE IS FAITHFUL---becomes harder to grasp in those moments. It is in hindsight, perhaps moments later, or hours later, that I realize His faithfulness despite my imperfections, and the chaos, once again, becomes strangely dim.
At the end of each chapter, Kimm has a few questions for the reader entitled "Getting Real." Here are my answers:
Chapter One
1) A summary of my testimony: I was very young when death and mortality became a reality. I saw a man drop from a heart attack right in front of me. My mom was in and out of the hospital with severe, sometimes deadly illnesses. My friends were murdered at a very, very young age. My dad was diagnosed with Melanoma. Not only that, I saw that I couldn't depend or rely on the material things of this world. [Parent's] Jobs are lost. Houses are lost. This all happened before or around the age of ten. Sometime in the mix of those trials, I was saved. I had said The Prayer at five, but I surely didn't understand the Gospel then. It was when I realized that everything was out of my (and my parents') control, when I realized that the things I relied on the most wouldn't always be there, when certainty became uncertain, that Christ showed me his faithfulness, despite my sinfulness and my undeserving of favor. I, too, like Kimm, rededicated myself many times to God, but I remember realizing that just because I still sinned, didn't mean I was no longer a Christian, or had fallen any farther from God's favor.
2) What do you think makes someone a "Good Christian?" Why? What makes someone a "Good Christian" is absolutely nothing. I can do nothing to become a "good Christian." God does His work in me. He changes my heart. His son, Jesus, covered me and all my impurities so I am spotless and blameless to him. What a sweet relief! I'm not saying that I don't struggle with trying to be good, or patting myself on the back when I do something that would look good to others. It is a struggle to remember these truths in the midst of sin!
3) What do you find yourself putting your faith in today? Does the hope you have in your parenting, marriage, or ministry override your hope in the finished work of Christ? What does it really mean to "rest" in Christ? I find myself putting my faith in myself and my abilities (or lack thereof) to clean house, cook, and take care of my family in a way that pleases others. This is a struggle of mine. Christ always seems to reel me back in to the reality that none of that matters and that I need to "rest" in him. But, sometimes, that may be after my sin has gotten the best of me and I've wallowed in my frustration, anger, or resentment for a few hours. Resting in him to me, looks like this: Instead of running around all day cleaning, cooking, washing, and tirelessly taking care of kids, then, then throughout the day, throwing up prayers to God in tough moments, "Oh! Lord, please help me!", not expecting, or having faith in the how much I complete in a day. Resting in Christ means knowing that it doesn't matter if I get the laundry washed, the dishes loaded, or the kids bathed. Although I will continue to try and do those things in order for my family to function, I have the comfort to know that no matter what shortcomings I have, Christ will always be faithful, and he is my portion. As 2 Corinthians 12:9 says, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness."
4) What assures you of your salvation? Are you afraid that if your commitment to God waivers, then he will drop his commitment to you? What does 2 Tim 2:13 tell us about God's faithfulness? I am so very thankful that my salvation does not depend on anything I can do. It is a gift. I often cling to Ephesians 2:8-9 in regards to salvation. "For by grace you have been saved through faith. And this is not your own doing; it is the gift of God, not a result of works, so that no one may boast." There is nothing I can do to earn my salvation, and there is nothing I can do for it to be taken away. 2 Timothy 2:13 is a wonderful reminder that no matter how much we screw things up or don't accomplish what we think we should have accomplished, no matter what, He is still faithful. What a relief, isn't it?
I have completed the first two chapters of Christ in the Chaos, and there are so many sweet truths that God is using Kimm to remind me of. I look forward to reading chapter 3 today!
PS: If you are a mother, I would recommend this book, even though I've only read the first chapters. That is how good they were. So, buy the book here: http://www.amazon.com/s/ref=nb_sb_noss_1?url=search-alias%3Daps&field-keywords=Christ+in+the+Chaos
Monday, November 26, 2012
Saved, not by works!
| The Salt Lake Temple |
Today I am so very thankful, beyond words, really, that Christ has given me the gift of salvation. I am so thankful that I don't need to carry around a burden to do good works so I can earn my spot in heaven. We visited the Temple Square in Salt Lake City today because they turned the Christmas lights on there this evening. I must say I was oddly depressed. My heart ached for the LDS. There were seemingly millions of tiny, festive lights strung on all the trees on the Temple Square grounds surround the temple. There was a beautiful reflection pool with a nativity scene in the middle of it. There was a narrator over a loud speaker narrating the story of Christ's birth in a light show. They are telling the story of Christ's birth and trying to emphasize the importance of it. However, they don't believe the coming, death, and resurrection of Christ fully save them. They do work to earn their salvation, among other things. The people who take part in the LDS religion are hard workers. You can tell. Their temple and churches are beautifully built and kept. Their Elders and Missionaries are out in large numbers sharing their religion. But, can their work here on earth save them from their sin and death or even earn them more in the life to come? And if so, what purpose did Christ serve on the cross? Oh! If they only new the true Gospel story! What a burden would be lifted!
Monday, November 12, 2012
Freedom to Worship
Yesterday our church observed the International Day of Prayer (IDOP) by gathering with a few other churches from the community and praying for the persecuted church throughout the world. Specifically, we prayed for Turkey, Iran, and North Korea. In these places, Christians, who are quite scarce, can't worship publicly without consequence. They preach the Gospel knowing it may cost them their life. They preach the Gospel knowing it could cause them torture and assault. Despite the hatred that is shown towards Christians in those countries, Christians still seek to spread the Gospel of Christ.
| A man from Turkey shares his testimony of his salvation and the beatings and torture that came along with it. |
Sunday, November 4, 2012
My Church
| This small building is a big part of my life, not because of the bricks that hold it up, but because of the people who gather there, and for the reason they gather there. |
I am also very thankful for the fact that I met my husband at this church. It is a great thing to be spiritually like-minded in marriage! That spiritual like-mindedness also reflects in the unity our church family has been blessed with. I know this doesn't come naturally to a whole bunch of sinners who gather in one place once a week. Surely, I have experienced churches that have had quite a bit of division. It sure does make church life miserable. I give God all the glory for this unity, for He truly has done a work in holding this body of believers (and sinners) together!
Monday, October 8, 2012
God cares for the...Cats.
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| Madelyn brushing her kitty one last time before she left for her new home. |
In her new book, Thoughts to Make Your Heart Sing, Sally Loyd-Jones writes about worry. She says, "Worry is thinking we know better than God how something should go." WOW! Isn't that so true, yet, convicting? This is a children's devotion, but it sure does a good job at speaking to adults!
In mid-August, I put a plea on Facebook for someone to take this kid-friendly cat. It took a few days and a few phone calls, but a Facebook friend kindly offered to take our cat. Madelyn's heart is still sad when she thinks of her kitty friend that is now with another family. I remind her that the family is loving her and she is happy there. The relief of our cat, Abby, finding a loving home was HUGE! Oh! How I wish I remembered how God cares for his creatures...be it a bird or a cat! How I wish I didn't so easily forget that He cares for ME! He knew of the heavy burden on my heart for this cat! Let us be more like the birds when it comes to our worries. God always cares for His children!
(By the way, if you are interested in Sally's new book, Haven Today, the radio show my husband produces, is doing a series on it. Please give it a listen! http://www.haventoday.org )
Tuesday, August 10, 2010
I Needed the Quiet
****I came across this poem on a blog I read. It is such a good reminder of the need for quiet time with God.****
I Needed The Quiet
I needed the quiet so he drew me aside
Into the shadows where we could confide,
Away from the bustle where all the day long
I hurried and worried when active and strong.
I needed the quiet tho at first I rebelled,
But gently, so gently my cross he upheld,
And whispered so sweetly of spiritual things,
Tho weakened in body, my spirit took wings
To heights never heard of when active and gay,
He loved me so greatly he drew me away.
I needed the quiet, no prison my bed,
But a beautiful valley of blessings instead –
A place to grow richer in Jesus to hide
I needed the quiet so he drew me aside.
– Alice H. Mortenson
Friday, January 9, 2009
Let it be said of us....
"Let It Be Said of Us
Let it be said of us that the Lord was our passion,
That with gladness we bore ev’ry cross we were given,
That we fought the good fight, that we finished the course,
Knowing within us the pow’r of the risen Lord.
Let the cross be our glory
And the Lord be our song,
By mercy made holy,
By the Spirit made strong
Let the cross be our glory
And the Lord be our song,
‘Til the likeness of Jesus
Be through us made known.
Let the cross be our glory
And the Lord be our song.
Let it be said of us: We were marked by forgiveness,
We were known by our love and delighted in meekness,
We were ruled by His peace, heeding unity’s call,
Joined as one body that Christ would be seen by all.
Let the cross be our glory
And the Lord be our song,
By mercy made holy, by the Spirit made strong
Let the cross be our glory
And the Lord be our song,
‘Til the likeness of Jesus
Be through us made known.
Let the cross be our glory
And the Lord be our song."
Monday, December 8, 2008
Back in Sac
We also went a few places in Sacramento. We went to Old Town and to another old mining town called Placerville. So, here are a few photos from our road trip.
Monday, November 24, 2008
"Oh, death, where is your sting?"
“O death, where is your victory?
O death, where is your sting?”
The sting of death is sin, and the power of sin is the law. But thanks be to God, who gives us the victory through our Lord Jesus Christ.
Therefore, my beloved brothers, be steadfast, immovable, always abounding in the work of the Lord, knowing that in the Lord your labor is not in vain."
1 Corinthians 15:55-58
Saturday, November 1, 2008
Did you know....
...that on October 31, 1517, Martin Luther posted his 95 Thesis on the door of the Catholic Church in Wittenberg. It challenged the Catholic church concerning the selling of indulgences (selling forgiveness of sins of the purchaser or the purchaser's loved one). Luther made many points, and one of them was that forgiveness was God's alone to grant and no one could do any works or pay anything to recieve it, as it says in Ephesians 2:8-10. This event sparked the Protestant Reformation. As a result, Reformation Day is celebrated on October 31. So, instead of celebrating Holloween, I choose to celebrate Reformation Day. It isn't an alternative to Holloween. Better yet, it is a true celebration of God's free grace. I thank the Lord that men like Martin Luther had the guts to confront the Catholic Church.
Thursday, June 5, 2008
Charles Wesley’s Radical, Fruitful Risk

Let's be honest here. It is hard to witness to folks. John Piper writes of Charles Wesley taking a huge risk in order to witness to a couple of inmates doomed for death the next day. It is a very encouraging, short read...I recommend it! Click here to read the article.
Monday, April 28, 2008
Strength for the Weary
"Strength for the Weary
But what if you have lost your smile? How do you find renewed joy to sacrificially serve and tenderly love your children? Our only genuine source of refreshment comes from God. In Him alone do we acquire fresh strength to carry out this enormous task of mother.
So may I encourage you to size some time alone to meet with God? This should already be out daily practice, but in seasons of weariness, there is tremendous benefit in withdrawing for a more lengthy time to pray and read God's Word.
Now some of you mothers with little ones might be asking, "How is 'alone time' possible? I cannot even go to the bathroom by myself, much less consider an extended period of solitude!"
Maybe your husband could arrange this time for you, or possibly you could trade off with another mom. Whatever it takes, it's worth he effort to make it happen!
Taking time to meet with God is a practice modeled for us by Jesus Himself. We read in Luke 5 that multitudes were coming to Him with their needs: "Crowds of peoples come to hear him and to be healed of their sickness. But Jesus often withdrew to lonely places and prayed" (vv 15-16, NIV, emphasis mine).
Doesn't this sound like a description for motherhood---everyone coming to Mom with needs? Yet look at what Jesus did. He withdrew to solitary places and prayed.
Now if Jesus needed to withdraw frequently and pray in order to receive His Father's help and strength, do we suppose we need such times any less? So if you are weary, or if your joy and vision for motherhood is waning, take some time this week to be alone with God."
~Carolyn Mahaney
Friday, April 4, 2008
An amazing quote...
"And Jerram Barrs writes in his article, "Christianity and the Arts" (PDF):
Our work in any field of the arts will be imitative. We will be thinking God’s thoughts after Him—painting with His colors; speaking with His gift of language; exploring and expressing His sounds and harmonies; working with His creation in all its glory, diversity, and in-built inventiveness. In addition, we will find ourselves longing to make known the beauty of life as it once was in Paradise, the tragedy of its present marring, and the hope of our final redemption. All great art will contain this element of being an echo of Eden: Eden in its original glory, Eden that is lost to us, and Eden restored. (pg 7)"
I've never been able to put to words the reason why I love to create a piece of art or write a short story. Barrs succeeded in putting it in words for me. I thank God for the ability He has given me to use and imitate the words, colors, and textures He has created. I am just a child imitating my Father.
Wednesday, March 12, 2008
Weekly Passage (Review)
Proverbs 1:8-19
The Enticement of Sinners
8 Hear, my son, your father's instruction,
and forsake not your mother's teaching,
9 for they are a graceful garland for your head
and pendants for your neck.
10 My son, if sinners entice you,
do not consent.
11 If they say, “Come with us, let us lie in wait for blood;
let us ambush the innocent without reason;
12 like Sheol let us swallow them alive,
and whole, like those who go down to the pit;
13 we shall find all precious goods,
we shall fill our houses with plunder;
14 throw in your lot among us;
we will all have one purse”—
15 my son, do not walk in the way with them;
hold back your foot from their paths,
16 for their feet run to evil,
and they make haste to shed blood.
17 For in vain is a net spread
in the sight of any bird,
18 but these men lie in wait for their own blood;
they set an ambush for their own lives.
19 Such are the ways of everyone who is greedy for unjust gain;
it takes away the life of its possessors.
Saturday, November 3, 2007
End of the Spear

Last night, we rented End of the Spear and watched that with Matt and Tiffany. It was a good movie, but, I must say we were a bit disappointed that it didn't explain much about Salvation and the purpose and passion of Nate Saint, Jim Elliot, etc. It made me think that a person who isn't a Christian may wonder why these missionaries were "crazy" enough to approach such a violent tribe of people and not defend themselves. It is an incredible story, though. The missionary's widows went to their husband's killers and taught them the Gospel. Mincaye, the man who killed Nate Saint, is now a Christian and lives to tell people about Christ. Steve Saint, Nate's son and Mincaye are brothers in Christ now. They serve the same God. To see the transformation of a man who only knew the violent, vengeful, sinful ways of his people, to a man who passionately shares the Gospel with others is amazing! Its very encouraging to those of us who share the Gospel with people in our own lives! If you would like to see a clip of Micaye sharing the Gospel with Steve Saint interpreting, click here.


